Monday, May 2nd
Today had it’s ups and downs. It was busy with getting the kids caught up on their homework. That took us until lunch time. Then Jacob was able to Skype with his class for about an hour and a half. I didn’t sit with him through the whole thing, but I heard him giggling quite often. I think he enjoyed himself tremendously. I think Skyping will be good therapy for him over the next year.
Jacob did end up having a meltdown this afternoon. I just hate those! He certainly has every right, but it’s just heartbreaking!!! Who wants to hear their child crying and say that they hate everything that they’re going through and they just want to die. That heaven would be so much better. This is all while he’s practically hyperventilating. That’s enough to ruin your whole day. I know that it’s probably going to happen from time to time. He’s done so good so far. I guess I can’t expect him to be in good spirits all the time. It’s hard not to wonder if we’re doing the right thing…..that is why I have to put all my trust in God!
Thankfully this evening went much better. He was calm and relaxed. Tomorrow will be much better. His cousins birthday is tomorrow, so we’re going to a museum in Grand Rapids and out to lunch. I know the kids will have a blast. That will help Jacob get his mind off of things and mine too. 🙂
Please continue to pray for Jacob. Not only for his healing, but his anxiety and fear. Thankfully this isn’t an ongoing thing, but when it hits – it’s not good! We’re not going to allow satan to tell him lies and fill him full of fear. God is bigger than all of that! I could also use your prayers in moments like those. It’s a helpless feeling! We are so thankful for all of you! You are truly amazing people and such a blessing!